NONDUALITY:WHAT ATTRACTS AND WHY THE ATTRACTION?

It’s nonverbal and does not have much to do with words but that does not mean it has nothing to do with words. Words are appearing in the silence also. What I mean to say is that there is something, to use a word that the nondualists use, in me, that ‘resonates,’ with certain things. Or, in the ‘me that is appearing’ as the nondualists might say. When I was twenty I went into the reference library at Bloor and Younge, an I think seven story building, and I listened to the tape and video of U.G. Krishnamurti speaking with Jeffery Mishlove. It was a talk called The Mystique of Enlightenment. I couldn’t understand all what was said, - but I felt that there was some energy being expressed that was what I was trying to express or felt. At Younge and Sheppard, at another beautiful library,- was then anyhow- I am sure it is probably still there,- I saw a book cover of Jiddu Krishnamurti speaking, well standing, or something- something like a profile picture. I felt something. One always has to allow that it’s just an imagination, - this resonance, - a self-delusion, - so I always do. I know it is not, - think it is not, - but I always do allow just in case. 

There are other attractions, unlike most then seekers, - to items of my own faith, or of the faith I grew up in- St. Theresa, - a bookmark, where the quote says, Everything is Grace. The statures, the crosses, the Stations of the Cross, old churches, sometimes new churches, - the Bible, especially the New Testament and the Red Letter Version. Jesus. Mary. Joseph. Angels. Prayer Cards. Beads and Rosaries, - Decades. Who knows what it all means or does not mean? There is an attraction even still to these ideas, - to thinking about them, - metaphysics, psychics, life and death, OBE, NDE, guides, destinies, so on. I head a saying once, I can’t remember- I think it’s by a writer, - it said, What attracts, attracts. So, who knows? Unlike many other people who have been or are seekers or have delved into the canon of the literature of all that, - I do not detest or cringe at any organized religion. In fact I think they are interesting,- their buildings, the nice people,- many people trying to pray for their dead relatives, for the health of people who are alive but suffering, who are learning about scriptures. What is wrong with all that? Nothing I say. I think existence can and does handle it all, absorb it all. And places, Holy Places and buildings, sacraments, rituals, so on- all so rich, eclectic, soulful, so on. I would take them over any new age shop or store, which are for the most part,- these book stores and so on- have way too much things,- and are overloaded with varying energies and try simply to do too much, to be all things to all people. No, a simple pew or cross would do well for me.

Anyhow- I am attracted, the I that appears as they say, - to religion, spirituality, and Nonduality. Everybody likes something. There are worse things that people could be attracted to than energies and ideas that speak about awareness and enlightement and ideas such as those. Why? Because perhaps something of me is in them and something of them are in me, even to some small and minor degree.

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