When you were
a child and you looked at the plush balloon like seats, velvety, of a car, and
lost all sense of yourself for the stare. Or, when you looked without trying
out windows and saw the scene, autumnal, dusk, maybe even sad somehow, and the
pane of the window, though painted white, was chipping. There was no difference
between the outside and the inside, no filter, and huge existential terror, for
nobody, just a pure sense of terror, mixed, totally against any reason known to
any species in existence perhaps, with a pure sense of bliss and God (for
nobody). It’s like a dream that is come to life. How in the world did we get
here? And how come all the souls are not walking around in absolute wonderment
at it all? You saw a tree, and were the tree and the ground and the sky behind.
But that is not. It can’t be put into words. Even if the person you are comes
back and claims and experience (and how could it be otherwise in order to communicate
or be in this world), there is perhaps some memory at the least. Of…when you
were a child and you looked at the plush balloon like seats, velvety, of a car,
and lost all sense of yourself for the stare.

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